Emptinesses

No sound, no taste, no sight no feelings 

Emptiness has staken  over me 

No warmth , no light , no magic 

It feels like coming to an end 

I felt it was better before 

But I was deeply fooled 

A hood over my head I fell

Into your abyss trap 

Like a icy cold water 

It hit me dead flat 

Lost in self battle I waver

Trying to hold on at last 

But I have to wake up from this dream 

So magical it maybe 

But emotionally terrifying 

Im on the verge of breaking 

Strength is gone  and I’m empty

My powers has run out

You sucked all the lights of me

And left me hanging dry 

In the end we say farewell 

We bid each other goodbye

We tell to one another how it was

And leave it all at that 

Your beautiful eyes will haunt me 

Your taunting voice so childish

Your mannerism so unsure

Your touch so warm and fiery 

I will miss you easily

You have been a part of me

A grow up process ending up dearly 

Leaving an emptiness in me 

Gave it a year - We said

 Now to that point of no return 

I felt I have lost my brain

my pride and dignity in vain 

But worst of all I lost my heart and in pain

I have resigned and gave up

Opened my eyes and accepted the fact 

That the difference widened the gap

Between us there’s only a a charade 

As I move on I gained a lesson 

That love cannot be bought nor traded 

Nor can it be sold to the highest bidder 

It can only be felt deep inside your feelings 

I looked at you at dinner time.

your dimples I haven’t seen before 

couldn’t bear the fact you are so beautiful 

And that im so lost and in-love with you.

I hide from you and cloud my eyes 

I could not show my deep feelings 

Because I know you do not have 

The same love  that I do for you 

I let time and space decide what becomes of us

A year has passed and my heart still  imprisoned

Caged and tied up with yours 

But you have no love for me.

I know that will never be 

But thankful for the time spent together 

Like self torture if no end 

Now I say farewell in my mind 

I see you, I feel you, I hear you, 

Am I dead ? Because the day I realized 

That I  am nothing to you I died .

A thousand times worst then death 

I love you. Maybe I see you in the next life. 

And then you will recognize and see me too

Thank you for your time and affection

It was not enough but better than nothing  

Can You see me ?

 

You look at me but You dont  see me,

You talk to me but Just curtly

I hesitate but fast decided 

That I would hold on to this strong feelings,

Keep it to make me whole and happy.

I ask myself countless times why me..

But The truth sets me free.

The happiness that You bring me

Is incomparable to  E=mc2 

 

So now How do we go?

I see You look at me

I feel the warmth of your energy 

Do You Also feel me?

I know one Day we will part

So i take this time now and enjoy

This strange feeling that has occupied

The 7 senses of me 

I Live för now