It felt different, it felt not the same
I looked at you and said you look like no other
I took a deep breath and and searched myself
Tried to understand what feelings to consider
But that deep emotional love seems to have left
What is it, what could it be, is it over
Days passed by and it feels like ordinary
I looked at your pictures but no shudder
Is it true? Has it happened that the love I felt
Is gone and I am finally sober
Like that song called Heat Wave
Last night all I think about is you
Head so occupied and thoughts lost
I am damned to Hell Hole
What is it that makes you so attractive
Is it your youth and deliberate indecadence
Your fountain of unsureness unlimited
Or you overly confidence a volunté
Here I am scratching my head to oblivion
Wondering what really is going on
Turned inside out upside down
Hopefully one day I would be normal again
What is it that made you so special
Is it your high intelligence Quotient
That seemingly know it all facial gestures
Or that innocent play eyes look
Pfffffffff Im out of ideas
What could it be
That made me fall for you
Those kisses 😔
But you are so cold now
The playful eye glint is gone
No more playtime
No more fun
No sound, no taste, no sight no feelings
Emptiness has staken over me
No warmth , no light , no magic
It feels like coming to an end
I felt it was better before
But I was deeply fooled
A hood over my head I fell
Into your abyss trap
Like a icy cold water
It hit me dead flat
Lost in self battle I waver
Trying to hold on at last
But I have to wake up from this dream
So magical it maybe
But emotionally terrifying
Im on the verge of breaking
Strength is gone and I’m empty
My powers has run out
You sucked all the lights of me
And left me hanging dry
In the end we say farewell
We bid each other goodbye
We tell to one another how it was
And leave it all at that
Your beautiful eyes will haunt me
Your taunting voice so childish
Your mannerism so unsure
Your touch so warm and fiery
I will miss you easily
You have been a part of me
A grow up process ending up dearly
Leaving an emptiness in me
Now to that point of no return
I felt I have lost my brain
my pride and dignity in vain
But worst of all I lost my heart and in pain
I have resigned and gave up
Opened my eyes and accepted the fact
That the difference widened the gap
Between us there’s only a a charade
As I move on I gained a lesson
That love cannot be bought nor traded
Nor can it be sold to the highest bidder
It can only be felt deep inside your feelings
I looked at you at dinner time.
your dimples I haven’t seen before
couldn’t bear the fact you are so beautiful
And that im so lost and in-love with you.
I hide from you and cloud my eyes
I could not show my deep feelings
Because I know you do not have
The same love that I do for you
I let time and space decide what becomes of us
A year has passed and my heart still imprisoned
Caged and tied up with yours
But you have no love for me.
I know that will never be
But thankful for the time spent together
Like self torture if no end
Now I say farewell in my mind
I see you, I feel you, I hear you,
Am I dead ? Because the day I realized
That I am nothing to you I died .
A thousand times worst then death
I love you. Maybe I see you in the next life.
And then you will recognize and see me too
Thank you for your time and affection
It was not enough but better than nothing
You look at me but You dont see me,
You talk to me but Just curtly
I hesitate but fast decided
That I would hold on to this strong feelings,
Keep it to make me whole and happy.
I ask myself countless times why me..
But The truth sets me free.
The happiness that You bring me
Is incomparable to E=mc2
So now How do we go?
I see You look at me
I feel the warmth of your energy
Do You Also feel me?
I know one Day we will part
So i take this time now and enjoy
This strange feeling that has occupied
The 7 senses of me
I Live för now
Soul searching? Twin Fire? Deep feelings intertwined?
Loving and Hating, Unblock after blocking, where does it all end ?
Regretting, refusing, reproaching, resisting, what more is there?
In the end you see each other, you touch each other, you kiss each other , you feel each other, you hug each other and say it’s nice to see you again ?
Maybe time will tell and unveil. Maybe time will stood still who can tell?
But the strong feeling of being together of not being able to stand apart from each other is an absolute denial?
We live for the moment. We live for now. We live in the present because that is the most beautiful you could give yourself -
Fresh Breath of Covid Love
She saw you , she thought you saw her
She thought you felt her
She thought you wanted her
She was very wrong
She felt saddened
Her heart was broken
Her wits strawned out in the wind
Her tears were unstoppable
Her cries echoed in the room
She was lost
Time heals all wounds
Deep cut, shallow bleeding
Unrelented feelings
Unbeknown emotions.
Because absolute love
Doesn’t need reprocity
True love was as is
