48 hours to hell - yeah

 It has been more than 48 hours of detoxing from you. 

Am I doing fine, I guess. Of doing the Mantra I let go.

I free my mind, and fill it in with other chores 

Monotone, diverse, but most of all to breathe without a thought of your existence 

It’s a long way to freedom, but I’m determined to to reach that destination 

I know I will meet you again, in a correct time, right place and it will be very special 

I still could not understand and grasp that time took  and imprisoned me with my own choice

Is it love ? Because not even once did I feel something in our physical union any satisfaction. 

Maybe my brain is cast in black magic - you are a black magic Man and made my mind possessed 

I’m on my way to freedom, of peace and no worries.

Time to give myself the energy and love I have lost for you in three years. 

This time it’s no joke.

I accepted defeat

Reality hurts they say but nothing compares to how I feel 

3 years of undefined  happiness it felt, yet deep down it’s surreal 

I walk away in silence with my heart is bleeding,

I accepted defeat and my mind is searching.

I asked you if can you live without me ? You said maybe,..

I said I can’t in my mind, see a life without you surely.

But here I am turning my back on you accepting defeat

I realized you are not meant for me. 

I looked in your eyes and I see,

That I have been very silly.

So I walk away in silence.

Accepting defeat.

I may have loved you with all purity.

I may have given you sovereignty.

But I know deep within me that what I want from you will never be.

Goodbye is hard to say but I must.

In doing so releases me from this insanity.